~~Self Healization~~

I was numb when you left and did not want to go on
but then i opened the window and I saw the sun
kiss me and reassure me that i no longer had to feel
this way and i shall soon overcome, i was so numb
and i thought i had it all figured out, prediction even, future teller
boy was i wrong, blinded even by the very thing i dream of, LOVE
It was like a tug of war going on inside, pulling me left and yanking me right
each blow and punch from LOVE i received i manage to get back up and
TRY again, until, i had a revelation!!
it was like that tunnel of light people see at the end
when
they have near life experiences
well at the end of my tunnel was me
Me telling me of my gift and my greatness and my strength
and me standing there wide eyed in awe and amazement of unbelief
knowing that this moment was real and no one would believe me
and call me looney and crazy.
That didn't matter or even cross my mind, especially at that
time.
This was about me and no one else, my revelation for SELF.
I realized that I had unfrozen from my numbness and my dumbness
and slowly i undressed and stood naked for the first time in my
life.
I threw out all of my fear from LOVE and let it all go and now I know
I am healed, and ready to give you my LOVE again.